I´m taking time to think about home now. Sometimes I am lonely, and I don´t like to think about home. Right now I am alone and happy and so I am allowed to think about the babies that have been born and the friends who are working and sunning and living. I´m allowed to wish Brian was here and I´m allowed to think about my little Lynky all growing up and ready to turn 16, because I don´t need anything. I can miss what´s changed without needing it, and I can wonder about what work and life will be like when I come home, I´m ready to live slower. Nap in the afternoon and say no when I need time. This is time that I need. I need it because it makes me grow. It grows me and stretches me like salt water taffy. I am worn thin and my soles hurt but my soul is soaring. Freedom remembers and takes life with it. Freedom is not abandon. I am free in this and I will be free when I come back. Back stronger and hands a bit more steady. There is so much I haven´t seen. There are so many stories I haven´t heard. I wish for all my friends something new and difficult. I wish for challenges and the strength to meet them head on. Home is closer than it was yesterday. It gets closer by the day and I will be freer when I return.